Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Please indulge me in this lil mamie moment...

My stars I remember the day that this picture was taken and how she laughed and ran on the beach and had her sister Ashley and her cousin Alisha chase her. She like me and my older daughter truly love the beach and the ocean...

She was walking on the beach leaving her footprints and when I realized what she was doin, I wanted her to turn and walk away from us so that I could take a picture of her, because it reminded me so much of my favorite poem "Footprints In The Sand" but she was tired, grumpy and this picture was as good as it got :) Never once did we think to GO behind her and take the picture lol

When I look at my daughter Anaissa now, this is still what I see in my hearts eye...she is now 13 and about 5'8 and I coulda swore 5'10 because she looks so freakin tall, I am 5'4 so it amazes me still...that I have to look up...if I want to look into my babys eyes...not to mention that it breaks my heart sometimes too :)

Both my daughters are least in my eyes :) They are both equally talented and love to draw, write stories, do journals and are just so artistic and talented that it blows my mind...I often wonder how, where did this talent come from? At just 13, Anaissa speaks like an adult... an albeit pompous adult :) hey I am "ama"...I can say that lol She loves big words and loves throwing her sister off with them...I can't tell you how many times I hear her leaving her big sister in a huff simply saying..."look it up" after insulting her and you know....(pssst don't say anything, this is stickily between us..but I sometimes have to leave the room because the need to laugh is just overwhelming...especially when I hear my older daughter yell "Mamie" and I have to define for her what her baby sister just called her :)

The other day, Anaissa left a paper at my desk that she was typing up for her English Gate class so uhmmm I stole this little piece...I couldn't help it...I thought it was beautiful :)

The Brightest Star...

A young girl. Full of love. Full of happiness. A bright girl.

One that literally shines with enthusiasm. A girl...that glows with

happiness & joy. She's carefree. She's young.

She is enlightened. She smiles & every other person in the world

can't help but smile with her. Star...That's what they call her.

The brightest of them all. The one that's not afraid of strangers &

embraces them with open arms. She's never afraid...

She's the girl I want to be. A girl, not a woman.

But sadly, that's a one will ever see.

Oh Nissa amor, if you only knew... that when mamie looks at you....that is the girl... I see :)

Update on me :) I am doing somewhat know how it is always ON so too much too soon rehurting my arm and so I am slowly stars feels like forever! but my arm is better each day...thank goodness it has been warm here in So Cali. because cold makes me literally see stars lol I hope to be back to posting more often and leaving more comments than I have...sorry, I have been visiting but was just too sore too type because well...I always have alot to say :) lol

Until next time dear friends...


Monday, October 5, 2009

A quick thank you and an update...

How can I tell you how blessed...happy...surprised and even a little sad all of your amazing comments on my last post about my dads pancakes have made me. When I wrote about my dads was all because a beautiful picture of a plate with delicious and beautiful..yes beautiful looking pancakes bought such a loved memory of my dad from my heart to my head.

When I wrote about my memory it hurt a bit, especially when I told about his last days... remembering that is still so hard...but it also made me soo happy to remember him, his pancakes and his smile and even the grumpy comments he made when we asked for his recipe...I just never thought how many of you could identify with this memory and feeling too.

I feel so blessed to have soo many beautiful, wonderful memories of my dad, I am even thankful for the not so happy memories...because, you know my dad was after all only the rest of us...but none the less, they are memories that bring him back to me if only for a few precious moments...but I am so thankful for them. Now for why everyones comments made me a little sad too...I think the realization that so many of us have lost loved ones recently, or are going thru something painful with a loved ones illness is heartbreaking...Also the fact that cancer is so often a part of this factor with so many of us makes it even harder to deal with sometimes...But I wanted to Thank All Of You, that took the time to read my LONG post and left me such amazing heart felt comments....Thru my tears from reading them...I thank you from my heart and hope that you all have some amazing memories of your own loved ones in your heart that bring you happiness when you most need it. Again, Thank You!!!

Now for my little update, I also want to thank you all that have been so sweet to email and ask how I am, it is a wonderful feeling when friends realize they haven't seen you around their blogs and wonder why (makes you feel special..right :) What wonderful "friends" I have made here in Blogland...Dawn...I forever thank you for that :) I dislocated my shoulder...thinking that I just pinched a nerve and that is why it was hurting so bad, I proceeded to try doing windmills (slowly)with my arm, thinking this would help losin up my arm and make it not so sore...SMART...yeah I get that now lol. After Tylennol and Advil did nothing and the pain was to the point it was making me ill, I finally went in to get my arm checked and found out I had actually dislocated my shoulder...yup and let me tell you not fun getting it put back either lol Guess those windmills were a really bad idea :) So I have been trying to visit your blogs still, because I miss seeing what everyone is doing but I haven't left comments...(typin with 1 hand is sooo slow lol ) and it was my right arm I hurt..., I am right handed, I know....only I could do that much well lol Hopefully in a few more days I will be back to commenting as well as visiting :) Hope everyone has a wonderful week....And if you are in So California....yay do you not just love this new cooler Autumn weather...just lovely, we are getting the sweaters and lap blankets out :) Tine for lovely delicious soups and oven dishes like meatloaf and pot roast with mashed taters....loves it!

Well until next time dear friends....