Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Such heart breaking saddnes, anger and disbelief....

Yesterday my heart broke for a sweet and dear friend...I have been in my own world for a bit, not even watching the news...just going about lifes everyday routine...My dear friend Kolleen of Heartwingssisters had posted about a member of her family that was missing...a beautiful, vibrant and much loved young girl....I saw her picture and I said a prayer...that she would soon be home with her family...but my life went on and I focused on that and nothing else..hence my earlier woewaysme post...And then a WAKE UP call went off in my head...being sick and taking cold meds that make me sleep, I woke up the other afternoon to the news and to a picture of a young lady that was missing....for a few days now...my heart froze...I suddenly felt nauseaus and shaky and knew it wasn't my cold...the picture that they were showing was the one Kolleen had shared with us.... I won't lie, the tv in our house is on 24/7 but mainly as background noise...we watch ALOT of movies and in the back of my mind...I remember hearing days ago of a missing girl....but when I glanced at the tv as I walked thru the living room, the picture was different from the one Kolleen had shared...so I didn't make the connection.....

On that day that I realized who she was....it was REAL...too real...my family prayed for her return, we asked each other all the time..."anything new? have you heard anything? Is she home yet?" but it was always asked with hope that she would soon be back in her families loving home...Yesterday that hope was broken....when we heard the news that she had been found....the way she was found...The look on our daughters faces as we told them...broke my heart....I saw fear, anger, outrage and disbelief....as a family, our hearts broke...for Chelsea...her mama, her papa, her family and friends that so loved her and my heart hurt for my friend Kolleen....

Kolleen is one of the loveliest woman I have had the pleasure of meeting here in Blogland...I don't just mean she is lovely in beauty...although she is...she has such a beautiful heart...she always visits with me, encourages me, laughs with me, at my silly comments or posts...but she is truly a friend of the heart...we were planning on getting together as soon as we can...see...as much as I would love to meet any and all of you....your are all mostly so FAR away :) But she and I are not...so we were both so happy that we have the chance to meet face to face....can you imagine??? yes....I know many of you can...I have seen your awsome posts of meeting blogging friends for lunch and shopping dates and just to spend time visiting and creating....how I wish to do that here with friends....you lucky ducks :)

Kolleen is a person with a huge heart....when you visit her blog and read her posts...you get that instantly...she IS her family...her family IS her....she lives and breathes them...her love story... she shared with us of the love of her life, how they met and later married....inspired me to not only read all the way back to her first post, but to write to her personally...I felt I knew her...we emailed and became fast friends....Her artwork reflects her love of life and those she holds close and dear....We found each other through a mutual friend named Kelly of Kelly Berkey Designs another amazingly lovely woman...I hope to meet her soon too, she moved from Manhattan Beach...my old stomping grounds to Egads...another state...Kelly come back...we miss you...don't you miss our warm Cali sunshine :) I know...shameless....

But what I am trying to say in all this is that...meeting all of you that I have visiting your blogs, emailing back and forth...we become a part of each other...we know each others hopes, artistic desires, life's dreams and it's heartbreaks...lets face it...whether or not we have had the pleasure to meet face to face or not...we have become friends...and we care about each other...we feel each others hurts, pains, joys and not only cheer each other on...we hold each other up when we are called upon to do so...

So please if you get a moment...go visit Kolleen and leave her a note...today her and her family sit in saddness and disbelief that their beautiful Chelsea King, was taken much too soon. And I know you are not supposed to wish evil on anyone...but today I pray that the monster that did this gets everything that is coming to him and more when he faces the judge....I pray that he doesn't get to walk among the innocent like Chelsea again...EVER and that his life will be something that if God truly is merciful will be soon extinguished and forgotten.

Kolleen... like I said has a huge heart...she says in todays post that she hopes to one day find understanding in all of this...Kolleen amor, you are a much stronger and forgiving person than me...God watch over you and your loved ones, please know my family is thinking of you and yours amor....Chelsea knows how much she is loved...it was evident in the thousands that showed up last night to offer support for her, her parents and loved ones...

Stay strong amor...

14 comments:

stefanie said...

that is sooo awful, words cannot even express!

June said...

I am sobbing my heart out right now Rose. I can't even imagine the pain of such grief. I will now go to my knees and pray for this wonderful woman and her family. I'm so sorry.
There are so many wonderful bloggers I would love to meet. All of them that I have made a connection with inspire me to be better everyday.
Love you,
June

Diva Kreszl said...

I am so saddened to hear this news, please now I am praying for the family and shall go visit her blog now!

Kelly Berkey said...

sweet rosa, what a beautiful post. i'm sure kolleen is giving you a big hug right now. i've too been saddened by how this sicko was allowed to walk around amoungst our children.
hugs to you dear friend. i'm so glad we are all connected.
kelly

Cynthia K. said...

Dear Rosa ~ So very sorry to hear this terrible news - I will certainly pray for her family and friends and leave her a note.

And bless your heart, I know this is so painful for you and your family. Your little girls - how sweet they were praying for her - and how sad they have to discover the evil and pain that can happen. Lord, bless and comfort their hearts and minds.

Rosa, I love you...

Cynthia K. (Beauty and Blessings)

Myrna said...

Our family is stunned at the news. We moved from Poway 5 years ago..I've walked around Lake Hodges...it had always felt like a safe,serene place. Our hearts go out Chelsea's family, and our prayers go up. Truly, there are no words...

Sandi said...

Oh Rose,
I am so so sorry! Such heartbreaking news I can't imagine getting. Will be praying for this wonderful family.
Hugs~

Sandra said...

Oh how sad:( I read about this sweet girl just a little while ago on a news site. I cannot imagine. I will definitely include her family in my prayers.
Sandra

Sue said...

You know, I live in Long Beach and my daughter and I were going out to eat at this little fish restaurant we like Sunday night. We paused to read a flyer that was posted up here, we live near Cal State Long Beach. Then when I saw the news, I don't even know how to put into words those feelings. When you are a parent, this IS the unthinkable. Hopefully all the prayers the family receives will at least let this family know they are loved!
Take care, Sue

Lori said...

Rose, i heard about Chelsea on the radio and it broke my heart...it always does when something like this happens...what a terrible crime!!!

Draffin Bears said...

Dear Rose,

I am so sorry for your friend.
Having being to a funeral today for a dear old Lady that was in her 80's was hard.
But with a young girl taken, so young, my thoughts and prayers go out to the family and may they have peace and comfort. So very sorry.

Sending love and hugs
Carolyn

Julia - "Vintage with Laces" said...

It's just so aweful and news like that always sound so unbelievable. We will never be able to understand why such things happen. My thoughts are with the family of this poor girl.
Hugs and love,
Julia

The French Bear said...

Rose, this is awful..... what a sad time.... my heart goes out to your friend.
I wish we could meet too, I see all those wonderful meetings and lunches too, it makes me sad that I don't have anyone close. Last year I tried with a lady that blogged close by but she turned me down, implied I wasn't up to her standards.... I figure, her loss!!
I am so glad we are friends!
Hugs,
Margaret B

Lovey said...

My heart is is sorrow for Kolleen and her family...you are a beloved person to write so touching and heartfelt words about what has happened. I'll pay a visit to Kolleen's site now...my sweets.